Content or Just Plateau?

So here's the thoughts on life as it is.

1. I have FINALLY found myself in a comfortable state of lonely. I took the time, paid for the crimes, and now know what kind of man is acceptable for the likes of me...but he's nowhere to be found. I'm okay with that, and know that's how it goes...but it's time.

2. I really like how work is going, and I LOVE LOVE LOVE that I could afford to travel a bit, finally. I wish I had more hours, but it's somewhere to begin. I know where to go from here, I just don't know WHEN to start...or necessarily which program (teaching certification). Sounds like Seattle University is my best bet.

3. I have the opportunity to move out of my parents place in Fall, and it's a great price for a tiny bedroom. I'd be in downtown Bellevue, closer to the I-405 North on-ramp to get to work quicker. Rent would only be $450 a month per person. If I move out in Fall though, it means I'd have to put off starting classes to get my teaching certification at least until Winter, or possibly until Fall of 2012 when I have more savings, and hopefully a better paycheck with Champions. I'm okay with this, because moving out is really important to me. Getting things started on my own is really important to me.

4. Fears: Is this really where I want to plateau? Is this where life is gonna take me now? It sounds amazing. I just need to keep traveling when I can afford it. What she didn't realize was it wasn't about who I was seeing...it was where I was doing the seeing. I'm on the market for a home, and I don't want to settle down (not the make a family kind of "settle down") in Washington State. I want to find a state that is only mine...a place I found on my own. I will give any of them a chance, and I will go as often as I can. I need to secure my summers, and camp is a nice way of doing that. I'm not getting brainwashed...it's a chance to build a portfolio of art-education; nail down a teaching style I like and works for the kids. Yes, I'm sure there's other ways of building a portfolio...but this is what I have RIGHT NOW. I need to live for RIGHT NOW. Last summer I went because it was something to do that was completely out of my comfort zone, and I stumbled upon a new me and a new-found love. I'm going for the kids, for the love of self-expression, resurrecting braincells you forgot you had...opening their eyes!!! PASSION!!! Sharing that.

5. Fact: I don't appreciate being looked down at...even when it's obvious I'm happy. Why is happy so threatening? Is the population of happy people really that minuscule that I constantly feel like I have to defend where I am, just because they don't like where they are? I won't apologize for that. This life works perfectly fine for me, and it's not because it's easy or safe. It's exciting. Every step of it, as life should be.

6. Happiness is all there is. Thinking positively is all there is. Creating art is all there is. Love is all there is. I don't have room for hate or disappointment. Every year I'm on this earth...it's better than the last.

Yes, I'm content. I'll never plateau!

Pete's Dragon Always Makes Me Happy

It's true, it's true...

Old Lampey's in a stew!

A dragon, a dragon, he swears he saw a dragon!

Everything Works Out

My Mother found my engagement ring.

Everything works out in the end.

Thanks Grandma Gerry; thanks for looking out for me.
It means a lot to have it back.

Washington Isn't Wisconsin

No; no it's not.

*Multimedia love*

Swinging

Every time Nandana asks me to push her while she swings, she shouts, "Ms. Heather, can you push me all the way to San Francisco?"

My heart melts.

Today Anthony said today was the best day of his life...and begged me not to go home.

I love my job! It makes up for the commute, and small paycheck by a lot!

Screw you. Child care workers do NOT teach children how to be wimps...we teach them to have fun and love life.


Thanks for insulting me and my career choice.

When Ready?

I took a year off from decisions to figure out what I wanted.

Now, I'm just more confused then ever...and I'm scared time is going to pass me by, and I'm going to stay forever scared, sitting on my butt waiting for some opportunity.

When will I be ready?

The Best Thing

I've been down this road before
I walk out the door
Leave you on the floor

Sometimes you run and hide
Your foolish pride's what keeps me from giving you more

So the best thing I can give to you is for me to go
Leave you alone
'Cause you got growing up to do

Some day I'll return when it's time for payment in kind
The churchbells are chimed

You stand before me surrounded by lights
Dressed in white
You threw flowers in the air this night

But the best thing I can give to you is for me to go
Leave you alone
You got growing up to do

It looks like the rain is pouring down on me
It's drowning me now and all I want is to come back home

And this old corduroy coat is not keeping me dry
But I can't think of what else to try

That's why the best thing I can give to you is for me to go
Leave you alone
You got growing up to do

Yeah
The best thing I can give to you is for me to go
Leave you alone
You got growing up to do