Today's thoughts...which, of course, are tough...because I make 'em so, and I put great care into what I think about.
1. My room mate has a girl friend. Her name is Sarah, and today she told me that she didn't want me to feel like she's stepping on or interfering with my friendship with Doug. I have known Doug since 4th grade, meaning 15 years...and for a girlfriend of his that I've only known for less than a year to say that...it's pretty big of her. I could easily come off as some enemy, someone who has a connection with Doug that she could never touch upon, and competition. I'm not, but it could seem that way. But for both of us to look at the other not as a threat, but an ally...it's pretty awesome! I hope Doug knows he's lucky, and I hope he knows that he has both Sarah and I to help him through this rough time ahead of him with his Mom/family situation. Yes, leaving for camp will be hard, but I have to go. These challenges we face in life make us who we are...and so far, I like who I'm currently hanging out with.
2. I'm moving to a different location of Champions within my district. It's gonna be hard, because I'll miss the kids I'm currently working with, but it always gives me a chance to meet new children and get attached to them. Vicious cycle! It's all about needing hours, and money...so I can afford to one day go back to school to become a teacher. I believe that having a start in childcare will help a great deal with where I want to go in life. Things are still pretty uncharted, but I'm happy to be where I am now. There's no question about that.
3. I had to read a section within my STARS initial 20 hours work booklet about abuse and neglect. It made me incredibly sad, especially this particular passage, "Reducing the incidence of child abuse is a matter of intervention and education." I have already decided that I will spend the rest of my life trying to ensure the safety and growth of the children I meet. It's just really hard for me to think about such things, and it's hard for me to think...it could potentially happen while I'm working in this line of work. I don't like thinking about it!
4. My definition of an awesome day: when the sum of everything that has happened to me in the span of my day produces awe and a feeling of self-worth! Then it's been awesome, and means I'm awesome! But just because I didn't happen to have an awesome day...doesn't mean I've stopped being awesome. I'm always going to be awesome...unless I stop caring for myself and those around me.
5. I remember this whirlwind of a night, sitting by myself on the step outside of a shack on the property of my favorite place in the world. I said to myself through tears, rocking back and forth, hugging my knees, "every tear will be shed for others, and not for myself." I will spend my life giving to others...because it makes me happy.
I'm Heather, and I like where my life is going...THE END.
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