Concerned

I have never felt like this before...and it's a little frightening.

I know camp always leads to a struggle for adjustment whenever it's time to go back home, but...I've never struggled to adjust this much.

My train of thought is so scattered, and as much as I know staying here wouldn't make me happy...I just crave some resemblance of a rhythm or "groove."

It's not even Winter.

I'm concerned for my career (whichever one I choose), I'm concerned for my future, and at this point...my wellbeeing.

I'm scared shitless.

I need help...and I'm too afraid to ask for it.