TTFN Washington

I leave for Wisconsin Saturday morning, and I can't wait for the send-off adventures tomorrow.

Piles of the shit I need to pack up are cluttering my parents' living room...and it all just feels like a re-run at this point. A paid vacation from life all the same though. I need to get away...HAVE TO GET AWAY! Right as it gets interesting; like a starlet exiting stage left just when they're beggin' for more! Mystery, friends.

I'm not sure what I'm in store for this summer, but I betcha it's better than the mess here.

Been avoiding the Doctor's office, when there's something obviously wrong with my body...and has been wrong for close to 6 months now. I'd really wish they'd just say, "you're best bet is just cuttin' the darn thing out. We all know you don't need it anyhow." Don't know if Alli will be employed when I get back, which makes living together really difficult. Hoping to one day have a job I can be proud of. Her status...that I say doesn't bother me, 'cause it doesn't, but...feels like one huge sad story when coupled with the train-wreck of my almost marriage. Yeah, found the lost engagement ring and wedding band when moved out of my apartment...but now it's the nightmare that won't end. I deserved better...but if the love letter's gonna work, I need the correct heart to launch it to. He wasn't the one, and man was I too eager. I love life though, and with the tears I refuse to cry..."may the past be the sound of your feet upon the ground. Carry on, carry on."

"I just don't want it to ruin anything planned."

I'm not graceful, I'm not put together. I'm a ghost who just wants to dance.

Cheers, Washington. To a new you, to a new me, to a new you and I.